Happiness

I remember why I originally wanted to post! Fear of success is something I don't understand, because the fear runs so deep I can barely feel it. BUT- fear of happiness is something I can really relate to on a moment to moment level and THAT I think I can achieve because its easily identifiable.
So, from now on, that's what I'm going to work on. Happiness. Just that, simple.

Been A While

I'm kind of happy I'm the only one who follows this. I've been seeing the shaman. But life is awesome. I'm getting better. But I think I've reached an impasse where its hard to help my self so much and I need the professional help of the shaman. In any case I'm still getting better and things are going well. I've got my meds and herbal pills and they all help. I've got flowers. I've got to get away from drugs, alcohol and sex. Those are my negative hang ons. Its one of these things I've got to do. I'm seriously working on it.

In any case, my therapist wants to sleep with me, so she'll love when I tell her that. Keep her confused.
Any way, lots of love.

Dream Vision

I dreamt lightly last night. In the dream, I had to be alone and in control of my thoughts to sleep. I didn't sleep well. In the future, global warming will be a real and often occurrence. I saw snow a foot of snow on the ground, and the next day, the weather was in the 50's and it was all gone.

People will be seperated from each other. They will have limited human to human interaction. This is sad, I guess, but the feeling I got was clinical or antiseptic.

THese are my dreams today. I have skipped much information. If I feel compelled I will write it down.